happiness is a body on my shoulder

i learnt something valuable today, and that is that you will only be disappointed when you set yourself up for disappointment

i learnt again that my actions were correct, and that intrinsically in this state i could not possibly be happier

there have been so many things ive let go of and they were all dead weights and i am so happy i could die

and i also want to know how happy i will be in a while

ecstatic, i think